do you babe?

gak di us , gak disgp ... ada cewek mulu ..
i know ... i never be good enough arent i ?
there always a girl .. girls... loves him ..
but cant you see me? just a moment , take a breath
has he ever wants me to be that girl .
i dont know what he feel for them .
i dont even know what am talk about .
i dont even know whats wrong with me
do you care? do you babe ?
i dont ever want another boy . i dont need those bunch of boys .
i dont !
am jealous ... you know ...
am nuts , yes i am ,
i know i never be as beautiful as them .
i never be as smart as them
i never be close to him the way they did . not yet
i want ! i always want .. but .. i couldnt do anything , anything i might do just waiting , thats why i wait . cause , you dont even know why do i wait .
you dont feel it , you dont feel a new spirit to trough your day , with a hope , your one will come , i dont even care , when he will come , i just keeping waiting .
you dont even know , why i still stand , and smiling !
you dont even know why i keep school and do waht you want me to !

its all because of him .. the other reason is my GOD !
so stop talk like you know what happened when you dont !